I woke up this morning at 4AM and have concluded that my sleeping schedule is completely crap. I will work on fixing that. So, after laying there for hours, literally, I turned to my handy dandy mini composition book that I take with me EVERYWHERE and wrote this little number by cell phone lighting:
I know that 2010 has past, yet I still needed time to sift through all the moments that have transpired over this last year. It was a year filled with happiness as well as heartache, and every emotion in between. Memories were formed that will always be remembered and reminisced upon.
I continued to search for what aspects of life that I cherished most. These may seem obvious, but 2010 cemented them in my mind.
Family: With the passing of my grandmother from cancer, I realized I always need to tell my relatives that I love them in anyway possible. Saying I LOVE YOU in a quick post-it, a short email, a hand-written letter; will always brighten their day and mine as well.
Close Friends: Listen to them. I mean REALLY listen to them. If you are there for them, they will gladly return the favor. Try to spend as much time with them, for college will be over in an instance and we will all go our separate ways wherever the wind takes us. It makes me sad and nervous to know this, but it is all a part of growing up.
Acquaintances: I remember this saying from years ago and 2010 truly solidified it. “People will only be interested in you if you show a genuine interest in them.” This is SO true! I have to make the first move in order to imprint my name and face into their brain and from there a friendship can form. Being the first to say “Hello” is daunting and scary, but those nerves help aid and show that you are a real person. I became more fearless.
The Un-friendlies: Even if people have put me down or said statements that are completely false about me, I have come to the conclusion that I just need to rise above it, or talk it out. I have become quite good at the whole “talking out” business. Expressing my emotions in negative situations is the best way to clear the air. I do not hate anyone. I am very forgiving.
Boys: I should ONLY date MEN who will treat me right. ‘Nuff said.
All in all, 2010 was pretty epic. Everything I have experienced has been thought through thoroughly. I have, yet again, gained so much from it all. I have made and lost friends. I have discovered new interests. It looks like 2010 was another great year of learning the ways of life.